heaven

being close to him makes me really happy. i don’t know. he’s probably gonna read this someday. i love every second spent with him. i love him. i love him.

being in love at the beggining was very frightening. it still is, actually. but i don’t care anymore. everyone' treats me like i am way too young to know anything, and maybe i am, mas even if everything i live now doesn’t matter when i’m in my 30s it doesn’t mean it doesn’t matter now. and i lived it.

i am so fucking lucky.

i am so fucking in love.

sometimes i don’t even know what to do with all these feelings and it scares me so much that i’m scared i’m gonna mess it up. you’re the closest thing to heaven i can actually touch with my bare hands. no one can light up a smile on me the way you do. and i am so, so in love. i am irrevocably in love. i will melt.

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