computers
i got my computer back and now im happy
i haven’t written a single piece in a month because my computer was broken and i don’t like writing on my phone. it’s just not the same vibe. actually, multiple things have a different vibe on the computer: scrolling through pinterest, watching youtube, taking notes. it’s more peaceful. i’m not here to discuss why it is like that. instead, i am here to write about computers.
in my school sometimes we go a room with lots of computers and i think it’s really nice because it’s a break from just being stuck in the classroom with our notebooks.
yes i guess you can tell, i don’t know what to write about.
i think it’s okay because all i’m writing is genuine and thats what’s important about writing. truth is, few people really care about being authentic online. but i feel great knowing i’m contributing to the vast sea of information and nonsense that is the internet, even if is in this dumb way.
i have written many pieces i am very proud of. i have created those mostly out of sadness. why do we make art out of bad feelings? actually, that’s easy to answer, i have a better question: why do we make sadness so beautiful? i recently found out a part of me thinks sadness is a good thing and i am trying to let go of that. i am also desperate for happiness. and i’m also trying to let go of that because happiness is just a feeling that passes like any other. and all of them are part of life.
i spent the whole day very stressed but at night, but when i got my computer back at the evening, i became imensely happy. isn’t it funny how we change so easily? i was thinking about how everything is god and how everything happens fow a reason and how all the people that stressed me out today are also god and how strangely god was presenting their form to me today.
now i stand in front of my computer screen and i am happy. silence fills my soul. i am in peace.